I lost a pound, but I am still up two from my total loss. I'm happy with my one pound loss. I got that loss at the gym and through making a few, minor good choices. Also, I probably got it because last week was period week, and this week isn't.

I've really committed to the gym, and it feels almost life changing. However, I have not truly committed to a life of better and different eating. I'd like to say this is the day I'll be a changed eater forever. I hope it's the day, but I have failed so many times to be certain this is the day. When I smoked, I learned I had to have a quit day for success. I can't tell you how many quit days I've had before I actually quit permanently. The other thing I learned about smoking is to not quit quitting. It was a process that took many years for me to make happen for myself. However, I never stopped the process of wanting to quit which included constantly trying. I have that part down with weight loss. This journal has helped me with that part. I will write in this probably forever. It's fun, and it makes me realize the "forever" part of the process of making good food choices.

I've decided to set a quit date for myself with my weight loss (Maybe, it should be called a start date). My quit/start date is going to be Monday March 17, 2008. (My quit smoking date was July 30th, 2007) I hope it will give me a few days to remind myself of my dedication to this. This is not an excuse for me to pig out till Monday. I'm still on program and even feeling quite committed this morning. I want there to be a contract with myself, and this is one way of doing it.

On Program Off Program On program

The bad news is I am off program again today. The good news is that I didn't just decide to say hell with it and have a total binge. That's the biggest difference between now and in the past. I guess there are 2 differences. First in the past I would be entirely off program in a major binge sort of way. Now, even when "off program" I am conscious of the choices I am making. Secondly, I am coming back to OP every time I screw up. YEA! I'm allowing myself to screw up and succeed.

Speaking of screwing up, or should I say screwing down? I did not exercises once this week. (My goal was twenty minutes a day) There is always next week, and next week I know will bring good changes in me.

I love Wine!!!

After such a great moment of turning pizza down, I screwed up big time. My husband brought wine home for dinner. (not a nice thing of him to do, never the less I am the one to blame) I drank most of the bottle and then was nicely buzzed and downed so many chips I lost count of them. The day gave me a hit of 50 points, so now I have 1 flex left. I will try to eat that one point wisely before Wednesday's weigh in day. So in the end the problem only becomes a problem if I need flex points during the week.

The Golden Trophy

The Golden Trophy goes to me. I figured if I had a hall of shame award for gaining, I should have an award for losing. I lost...drum roll...4.5 pounds this week. I can't believe I only have 56 pounds to the "so called" goal weight. Over the last weeks, as I've hung on the every word of successful weight loss bloggers, I realized that I can go all the way. However, I'm still uncertain what all the way is. I have decided that to start my end goal is 160. However, maybe I'd like to go farther, but I will decide that later on. Heck, I will be the mother of all thrilled at 170.

The Callender Girls Club

I got this from the blog called Journey to Lose a 100 Pounds. It's a great idea. The calender on the blog serves as a visual reminder to put a sticker on the calender every time I'm on program. I love it. Since, I started I get to put a sticker on for every day. Even though, I had a gain last weigh in, I was completely OP which means on program. I thought OP sounded sort of harsh at first. It's like you are either OP or Not OP. However, so far my journey of blogging and slowly learning from other's blogs who journal their weight loss, I can see that the only way to success is OP. YEA! I'm so excited about this calender idea.

So today, I went over my points which puts me over my points for weight in day. However, I am going to try to forgive myself because there is still wine left in tonight's bottle. (Usually, I would never leave wine in a bottle) I hope I lose weight tomorrow because tomorrow is weigh in day. This is going to be such a long process. It will be at least a year, but it doesn't have to seem so bad when I just chalk it up to the rest of my life. OK I am just babbling out of nervousness. I fear I've messed up my first week. A few days ago I was down 4 pounds, but that was before eating out for New Years eve, and having a snack attack today.

Broccoli & Cheese Soup

So I made this really easy recipe that I took from a Weight Watcher's message board. (Sorry I forgot the name of the person that posted it) It's really yummy and easy. However, be careful the cheese doesn't burn to the bottom.

Ingredients:
6 cups of fat free chicken broth
16 0z of Kraft Velveeta Light Reduced fat pasteurized cheese
24 Oz of frozen broccoli
1/2 cup flour
1/2 cup of water

Instructions:
1. Put broccoli in broth, bring to a boil and boil for 5 minutes.
2. Add cheese. Stir till melted.
3. In a separate bowl, combine flour and water. Slowly add to soup till it thickens.

Makes 11 one cup servings for 3 points a serving. Also, it freezes good.

Weight Watchers

I joined weight watchers on-line today. I ate fifteen points over my limit. (Thank goodness for flex points) Now that was a success if I ever had one. Actually, I was mostly starved and ate very healthy. I guess it will just take a few days to get used to munching on carrots all day! I confess that five of my points were devoted to my nightly margarita. I couldn't resist although I did take a much smaller portion. I am going to have to start working out because I'm going to want those activity points. Today, me and my son went mall walking with him in the stroller. I came back with 3 activity points and a 100 dollars less cash. Ouch!